小恶魔‪‪‪‪ ¾❤死神~ ‪‪‪‪

2010-05-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

Introduction..NOW=====> Life change since the day i worked in GOLDEN MILE i had a crazy life now almost every nite will be drinking beer, wine and etc. haha getting bigger size le...get in to fights in school early in the morning haha lol knowing PPL outside seeing lots of patterns of ppl..knowing whats the real outside world it be..TIME CHANGES PPL...Fooling around now..

Reflection of what i learn====>Girls are just using guys...so must be careful of girls cunning.

NOW===> still thinking of the past...LOL cannot forget it..haix.

2010-02-03T03:42:00.000-08:00

Its been sometime since blog...ya as lots of things have been keeping me busy work, reporting, school and family things...haha so is gonna catch things up...haha went to check on THINGS the PAST=)...haha i miss the time i had in the past and hate some of the past thing ya abit no link lol.... i'm jus going to go crazy again i was told tat before chinese new year we might be able to discharge ya next week jiu can le i'm so looking forward i wanna go do some things tat i have been missing out of... haha is good things not bad de=).....

i manage to get hold of my anger le...but then it jus so called too out of control for me to take it....i will always rmb tis sentance,,,,,FOR U I FROM DEVIL BECOME ANGEL & FROM A BAD TO A GOOD PERSON BUT THE DAY U LEFT ME I WONT LISTEN TO ANYMORE OF THE WORD TAT U SAY THEN I BECAME BACK TO DEVIL AGAIN.... ok had enuff time to go bye! haha

2009-11-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

today went to watch movie with hui ning...is been sometime since me met le...watch the jennifer 's body..is scary n funny...lol sch things skip...then went report..tot today i having counselling at the center sister kelly say nope program come frist...i was mix up blur cos dong yan say jus come center she will make the time for me..Zzz blur liao lor..then make my way to bedok but took wrong bus...a long walk diao lor nvm treat it as a training or punisment ba. then reach le play BB with the rest was having fun its been sometime since i play BB liao fun 4v4 n we won...Yeah=) haha nice sio..today was a happy day for me lor...enjoy=)

30th Nov have to stay over at the center 3days 2 nites haix EXAM ON THE FRIST DAY N SEC DAY~stress n scare i would not make it. i wanna make myself useful for the future..

2009-11-03T03:22:00.000-08:00

Today went back to report...heard tat the sec sch ppl holiday and now every week mon tue wed n fri nid to report...wtf like tat i don even have my on personal time to do my things fk it ITE lesson start in the afternoon till eveing then report home must be at 8 and i nid to go help my mum at work...so stresss n angry haix fk tis life i have CCB KNN PCB make me du lan onli! fk it la so stress exam coming i scare i cannot make it to the higher nitec to promote to ploy!! haix STRESSS LA CCB TMR wanted to meet wif friends to watch movie its been sometime since i watch liao then now give me crap report till 6 for the 4days knn i'm going nuts liao head pain tired i gonna cut cut cut feel good n stressless=) hehe....ideal whoo now head feeling dizzy...

2009-10-29T12:04:00.001-07:00

Jus work finish..tired today was a nasty day tat i had going crazy y can't any1 understand wat i felt? darren do u think jus by saying DON THINK TOO MUCH OR RELAX..will solve it? nope and is not easy then saying it do u think of tat? It had been sometime since i have a stressfree live when i was small..do any1 went through wat i went? nowadays i had been forgetting things le donno y maybe of stree? or i do have a sickness within me? i had been over stressing for the past 4years or i nid a lifepartner?? neh~ having life partner will hurteven more if someting happen..try more then once getting hurt over n over again so fedup kind of think of it..i think the main point is tat i'm jus scare.. feel weird sometime tink of having a partner but sometime think waste time money concerntration..

2009-10-28T05:56:00.000-07:00

Today went school as usual mr.M told us tat our exam will be on the 30th of nov and 1 dec..i asked him will i be able to promote to higher nitec he say sure u can if u everyday come lesson...Zzz i always come school jus sometime late...la wish i could promote~ haha..after tat went to canteen for lunch with lye huat..damn he really like duo pao...carry the cannon from the sentosa sia...donnoe y he say till like who will belive it..all the way hear him say about his girl...bla bla bla~ after that i went for counselling...there is a point there u said..but i donnoe y i don have trust on u..blur i think i'm jus scare ba jus work for money...went back home..

i felt enlighten abit trying to aim for my GOAL NOW!!

2009-10-24T16:09:00.001-07:00

Phew..jus onli end work..same old thing so TIRED! haix donnoe y sometime like working here but somtime i realli hate tis working place hard to communicate with tis ppl here and some of them realli damn guai lan..i hate it wow now i donnoe y i i keep forgetting things..now i forgotten y am i angry jus now..wah die brain spoil liao damn! haix i wanna be a real useful person jus tat once i start to do something good for myself something will bring me down n sometime is way down de...

2009-10-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm..today nth much work till around 8 in the moring damn tired.. when slp till evening 5 pm contiue with the work till now..wow damn shag..i was having lots of unknown call i ans and it hang up...don tell me is the past things..damn scary de i don wanna play le i tired le jus wanna be alone for awhile tat all=) Zzz jus got the msg from tat unknown person...saying (SORRY IF U THINK IM DISTURBING U K..I JUS WAN NEW FRENZ) Zzz...if its a prank i'm rdy to tag along and play..haha=) i wont be easily fool tis time round=) i suddenly felt my life is so full with drama sio..haha guess it means i wll die early..as ppl say u die 2 ways.. boring and long life? or exciting but short life..lol

Fk tis life i have!!! FK FK FK

2009-10-23T10:48:00.001-07:00

i hate it i hate my life i don like it don wish to be in tis world
1 by 1 gone haix...next will be me ba first was my my best buddy working at DJ he left and now my grandma next will be me ba=) hope it will be the feeline is bad i hate it filled with anger!cut more n more shiok men! no1 understand me ever onli i understood them as i have been through all i not showing offf or wat so ever is the truth i dare to admit if i done wrong i don wan tat feelin it sux alot i donnoe y i felt i going nuts...

today i went school as normal tio say by 3 girls so call ah lian haix nvm is ok friends ma nvm de i'm ok wif it then seeing tis i felt they really like to compare fk it compare? big fk?? after school actually wanna meet her but she still slping then nvm it was my fualt as i make her chat wif me till late is ok next time ba haha felt so damn sway and its damn sway.

2009-10-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

Normal day today went to school finish M work...had lunch wif lye huat after tat went to counseling for 1hr...it was a nice chat wif u...noeing my family background...haha..almost tears comeing out.. when having conversation...lol trying to put things in heart is really heart pain...hmm after tat went meeting brother help him with his fine...but is pass a day le..cannot liao lor haix...maybe go court le. then have dinner with him and had beer=) lol haha then went home...

2009-10-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today was a rushing day...as it was our submission day..of our project chiong doing the poster and the oral presentation...phew we did it in time Heng...lol when smoking with ah boi for our well done job REWARD~ haha.. when in to the class...group by group was call out to do the presentation...once we were call out i was to be the person who make the slide move..every1 did their speech except me (half way through phone keep ringing zzZ)teacher say if i wont come out and give speech 0 mark for me...wth~ he say since u are the 1 who do the slide u must have been research some other things so say the things which u had not put it up on the slide show...i was stun as it was not i do de......nvm i went up and BOMB about the lantern so and so fort she really belive it haha=) clever me i'm proud=) hehe

when to mrt to wait for her 1 by 1 the train pass.....wow almost 8 or 9 train pass by...nvm called her she say she jus going to come out from the hse...i say erm why not u come bugis meet ba...ok offi went to meet yue fang & her friend...once reach there tio bully...wth~ went to shop shop for my bag.. went in to the shop ZINC then hor THEY BULLY ME AGAIN!! TIS TIME PLUS A SALESGIRL....zzZZ sway lor..found my bag liao i bought it plus a holder for laptop at $59.80 woo..heart pain haha..then went to take 5....she call say she reach liao le met up she ask for some puff (-_-)... ok give her 1 puff...went walk walk while walking tio bully tis time 3 girl....wah sianx..sway lol went to food juntion... see tat yue fang eat...while seeing her eat also tio BULLY!!
go where also tio bully...then all went home...i follow her as she also stay at the east.. tell u guys wat IN THE BUS ALSO TIO BULLY...TIS TIME IS 1 GIRL NIA...i throw face liao...lol haha no la is see them small...send her downstairs trying to trick me again (=_=) i will bully the 3 of u if got chance=) haha sigining off~

glad tat u are happy=)

2009-10-13T07:38:00.000-07:00

Ytd play MJ till 5plus:x with rong gui brother...and my ex but she left early...well today late for school abit lor..haha i don wat Mr. M ask us to do on the pratical work...is easy as abc hehe then i waited for lye huat to finish his work...after finish our Mr. M!!!! ask me lye huat and 1 indian guy donnoe how to spell his name...nvm to CLEAN ALL THE RUBBISH WHICH WE NEVER DID LOR! haix...face the fact is super suay!! after that i and lye huat when to canteen for lunch then lye haut say seng yong and seb is coming mind waiting awhile? i say ook sure had lunch tgt go back class ask colin for XXX then off i went to report...suddenly saw a new boy name bobby i guess is like tat spell ba...haha play scrabble was funny every1 was disturbing each other...haha lol sister kelly say too noise....today was my turn to order food for every1 n i make a big mitake!! atcually order 2 packs of black peper chicken rice..they onli bring 1 of it the rest i order correct HENG ARH....haha i never eat dinner...but now eating cup noodle=) haha then we went to bedok had our PT=physical training....glad today didn't tio TEKAN phew~ play bastketball it has been a year plus since i play.... super noob lor me...play till around 9plus then we sign out went home..

Grandma has gone things change ALOT!!

2009-10-11T12:44:00.000-07:00

i really wanted things to go back to the way IT is!!!
Back then is so good shareing all problem wif her and going out with her=)
those was the day that i have with her i felt is still not enuff for her i want her now!!
is getting harder as every year pass by i feeling that i going to fall & will be a great FALL i ever Fell i'm scare really scare i don't think i'm the last time edmund anymore le Last time i dareing not scare of anything that comes to me now i shrinking like a chick worring abt everyday n every night haix GOD if there is GOD i really do hope that i can start over and doing every single right things even that i no that no 1 in tis world will not do any wrong things at least a try??

i saw my grandma die right infront of me the last thing she did was shaking her both hands and legs after that she open her eyes then i went and call every1 up every1 was there after 2 to 4mins around there she close her eyes n went of i think it was the last hope she wanted to see us alright anot i know she still worry abt me about my police case she asked my dad everyday she will ask i noe tat i never often went n see her as i felt fk up about the curfew things i noe is not an excuse i really wanna see her and talk to her now!!!! i feel useless as a grandson i feel i wont be able to help anything for my family and y? i'm stupid i useless lazy i admit all that ya ppl if u see tis i noe wat u will say jus change the habit right>??? ya is easy saying then done! when ever i doing thing which is good something will pull me down way down the more i fell down the more i feeling useless and saying to my self there is no point when u stand up u keep up standing wat is the point of standing up right?AH MA i hope u be happy at the other side of the world if there is. i love u AH MA!!

Starting was tat girl who i'm in love with leave me now MY AH MA....haix
1 by 1 leaving me friends love ones relatives.

i wonder where she is now..hmm

Feline i not tat i wanna break up our bff=BEST FRIENDS FOREVER is jus i felt tat u have been mixing with ur outside friend more...is no tat i still in love with u is jus tat whenever i ask u out u say cannot i fine with it but calling u and u say u with ur friends is like WTF?? bff?? or jus a friend or maybe jus a person which u needed me then u come find me like the time u have some problem u come find me not like saying oh i have no problem jus wanna go out have fun all tat??
haix i hope u find another 1 ba.

Stella frankly speaking i did and when and search for ur blog....sorrie if i when and see
tat time u wrote in ur blog saying y i so fast found a new gf? simple i was playing back, u hurt me tat time first right?i jus wanted hurt back u girls understand?? i changing email ya u can add if u want i take it neutral tat all ya.

Richard u fking change alot!! where the fk is tat last time richard tat i use to noe de!! i don even noe wat happen to change u like tis come on la the more u cheat ppl the more friend u will lose de i really got nth more to say u le i advice u how many time le?? 1 time? NOPE MORE THEN A HUNDRED!!!!!

If i`m gone i noe tis world will be more happy=) haha

FKing liFe!

2009-07-17T16:56:00.000-07:00

haix why she like tis dE!!! Really had something HAPPEN!

so didn't sms about the anniversary thing..

dad really some time drive me crazy at home..

why every1 wants me to force myself to do the wrong

THING?? FK IT!!

ppl do have their limits u understand??

i try my best sometime right??

At least i did make an effort to make things wat!!

she really hurt me!

2009-07-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

haix...today she jus wanted me to pass
her the money and hint me to leave
and she having fun with her
friends..tis is not a real girlfriend tat
i use to have...deep down my heart
a bitterness and it realli sux!! Am i
not suit to have a real realationship??